No Pain, No Gain

I have always considered myself a super goal oriented person. There are times however when you realize the sacrifices made to reach the goals and wonder if it's all worth it. Being that I am just on the brink of completing my second year of grad school, I am rreeeeaaaaallllllyyyyy feeling the squeeze of it all. I am in the process of finishing up internship #1 and starting internship #2. For the next two weeks they are overlapping a bit, which is just a bit overwhelming. This is one of those weeks where I have well over 50 hours in in 3 days and it just seems to really catch up with me. This past week, for some reason, every event of my life has not been written in my calendar (which is very unusual even for disorganized me) I typically don't make a plan or a commitment without checking the master schedule. Since my youngest is preparing to enter Junior High, her schedule is definitely picking up the pace: Auditions, sports decisions, class decisions, etc. I am grateful that she is super organized, and very seldom is a last minute kind of kid, but she also relies on me to be super organized (with the schedule at least) and this week I have let her down. On Tuesday, I had to miss her DDS appointment and mandatory Cheerleading meeting, because of overlapping schedules. Good thing she remembered the meeting an hour before it was to start and her Dad was able to take her. Wednesday, I had to miss her final Orff ensemble...since I work Wed. nights to pay for her braces. AND, next week on Wed. we were supposed to go see Wicked (her last grade school field trip) but, I can't get the day off work and I have to teach that night. So...she's been on her own this past week, which really pulls at my heart strings. Last night I was in bed and she said, "Mom, come cover me" To which her Dad replied, "Do you want me to do it?" And I said no, it's one of the few things I'm able to do, so by all means let me get my butt out of bed and go cover her. (This is the time also when I put medicine on all of her various breaking out sites and then lotion her up) -- It really helps her relax and gives us a minute to bond. So...at least I got that done. I know I have only 13 months left of this part of the journey, but there are surely times when you wonder if it's all worth it. At this point in my life, I just can't imagine having a flexible schedule, and having choices with my time. It seems a far way off, but if that is the outcome, the pain will definitely be worth the gain. When my baby is in high school, just for the record, I do not intend to miss not even one moment!

Until next time...

Overload...

I sure feel as if I'm suffering from overload....the good new is, I can see the light at the end of the tunnel. Yesterday I was not feeling well, as the fibromyalgia had really acted up the night before. I took a short nap at work and then found myself feeling much better. About 11:00 my friend asked me, now what time are you leaving for you meeting? I said, gee, I don't think I'm going, I just don't feel well. A few minutes later I checked my calendar and realized I had to do a presentation on Autism for the staff! Ummmm....in 45 minutes! So, I quickly burned a CD, borrowed a laptop, and was off. I arrived, ran copies of my packets and was ready to do my presentation at 12:00. (I am sure that qualifies for something in the Guinness Book of World Records!) The presentation went well and I got some nice compliments from my supervisors supervisor. That was nice. I returned to work and later in the day was putting some finishing touches on the presentation I had to do last night for class. I was checking the dates for the class one last time and realized I was preparing to teach the wrong class. Soooooo....an hour before I was supposed to be there, I wrote the class I was actually supposed to be teaching! So...it all came off without a hitch, but geeeez. Just a bit too much stress for me. I have set a goal to catch up my notes and reports to finish up my internship. I surely want to leave with all my work in order :) I am done exactly 6 weeks from today. It sure seems hard to believe! I'll have 4 weeks off (although I do plan to attend a few groups to 'get my feet wet' so to speak), but there won't be any have tos.